Thursday, September 30, 2010

We're on YouTube

We're debuting the new YouTube channel ... I've uploaded a few videos discussing topics I think are important to the baby loss community. Check it out and please, share your thoughts!

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Sunday, September 26, 2010

I'm Positive Because ...

  • I have to give my losses a meaning besides "it's meaningless."
  • I want to smile again.
  • I want to find reasons to laugh.
  • I want to enjoy time with family and friends without waiting for them to provide the type of support that only comes from people who've "been there."
  • If it's all I can find, I'll cling to the final grain of hope that tells me tomorrow or some future day has to be better than today.
  • I don't know about you, but every cell in my body craves to be free of this pain.
  • I find no comfort in depression.
  • There's no freedom in suffering.
  • There's no hope in hurting.
  • I have to find ways to create a positive space ... I need to shove this pain aside just long enough to let positive thoughts wriggle their way into my life. If I only think about what can never change, my heart can't heal.
  • I acknowledge that I can't do this in my own strength. I need you, Lord, to be the Lifter of my head. Let me find strength in Your joy.

My life is forever changed. I can never be who I was, but no one says I can't be better than before. I AM a better person than before my babies died. My love has depth now. My compassion feels endless at times. I no longer avoid those who suffer ... I reach out and never say, "if there's anything I can do ..." now, I see a need and just do it. Prayers are no longer empty words thrust into the air ... I now have a mission bigger than myself. I have a life dedicated to the service of others. I'm happy. I'm blessed.

Life now has meaning and it began with a positive thought.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Movin' on UP!

I'm happy to share and celebrate an Amazon milestone! Recently we've begun sharing Stolen Angels directly with more individuals and our bestsellers rank has shifted more than 200, 000 spots moving us from 1 million to a little more than 800K. I celebrate because this means more hurting parents are getting their hands on this resource and our efforts to get the word out are working!

There are more than 7 million books available for sale on Amazon, so this is no easy feat. I thank God! Leave a comment if Stolen Angels has been helpful for you ... you're comments keep the fires burning!


Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Straight Shootin'

I noticed some trends in the grief community that deserve a second look. Before we go there, I gotta admit that it's not easy to shake a cat in a bag! I'm going to ask you to reconsider some long-held beliefs - beliefs I used to share. But hey. The best way to shoot a gun is to shoot it straight. So, here goes.

As Christians there are some things we can't do. Okay, I know that that nugget isn't a shocker when we're talking about premarital sex or stealing, but what about the more subtle things like ... grieving forever. Some argue that it is okay for the Christian to grieve forever. Before you scramble for the mouse to click away from my blog, let's explore this a sec. I am quick to admit that the inability to bear a child is one of life's greatest tragedies. I often defer to the Bible to back me up on that one ... it states (in my words) there are 3 things that disquiet the earth, but the fourth the earth can't even bear. And guess what that fourth thing is?? Our experiences demonstrate it and the Bible proves it, so there is no argument that the loss of a baby/infertility are life altering events (and that's stating it without the full flavor it deserves!!). Now back to my point.

Even after experiencing a life event that rolls you flat, the Christian woman was never intended to stay in that crippled state for the rest of her life. If she handles her grief just as her non-Christian counterparts handle their grief, does it prove that finally there is a hurt too big for God to heal?

I had a 10 day old son. I had a 2 day old son. I had a baby girl born "with wings" ... (they were not triplets) ... I spent 5 long years as a childless mother. Sometimes I miss my li'l angels so much I can only let out a shout. When I say I grieved - Oh. I. Grieved. But I can tell you this ... I do not grieve any longer. It was when I finally moved past praying for help (often done with great passion, mind you) to actually walking out the principles God demonstrates through His word, that I received the "elusive" healing I craved.

I have soooo much more to share on this! Comment further!